WHAT PEOPLE SEE IN YOU

I got a bunch of friends to do an exercise to write out the words that come to their mind when they think of me – words that best describe me. I was pleasantly surprised (and flattered for the most part) because their view was pretty consistent among a dozen of them, even though they were in my life during different periods. More importantly, inspite of the diversity in their ages, background, cultures and personalities which obviously also affect how they see me. Personally, I had gone through some interesting stages - starting with the nerdy, to antisocial, to party animal, to career-oriented and currently, creative and business-minded. And a lot more sober, might I add.

After I read all of their carefully chosen adjectives, it was my turn to write what I thought about myself. This exercise was not done for the purposes of stroking one’s ego, but to actually figure out how well I know myself in the context of how other people know me……Sometimes what you see in yourself is so skewed that it has nothing to do with reality.

Happy to say that most adjectives that my friends see in me are the same ones I see when I look at myself in the mirror. One point for self-awareness. Still have a long way to go to reach what I would call, “the state of Pooh”. Working on it, though.

Btw, Miki Miki my worst nightmare, did respond to the blog I posted. I didn’t even bother reading his two emails because his grammar gave me a headache. Have better things to worry about than someone who has absolutely no influence in my life and doesn’t contribute a cent to my living expenses. Hopefully, he will sign up for some writing classes. His grammar terrorized me; so much more than the content of his writing which was utterly negligible.

P.S. Am just using he to represent both genders since I don’t know that Miki Miki is indeed a man.

Tina Vitas
Makati City

DEAR MIKI MIKI (MY RESPONSE TO A READER'S EMAIL)

To my esteemed readers,

I just wanted to share with you an email I received in my private inbox and my corresponding response to that email from someone who could only identify themselves as Miki Miki of alccous@yahoo.com.

I guess it takes all sorts to fill up the planet.

PINAYSIDEUP

Dear Miki Miki of alccous@yahoo.com,

I am elated that I could evoke such passion and emotion in someone who doesn't even have the decency, the courage and the nerve to identify themselves. YOU ARE A REAL WINNER!

Thank you for the publicity that your email will get me and my blogsite. People actually pay for this kind of publicity.

Fortunately, I was born with supreme confidence. No one can take that away from me. Not even a tirade such as yours can put a damper on my charmed existence as a human being. Not one iota of my self-worth is determined by people such as yourself.....

PINAYSIDEUP

hey pinaysideup!

i heard about your blog and read some of it. I believe that your major problem boils down to only one thing. YOU ARE A MAJOR LOSER!

Regret may be a word that you try to delete from your own memory but believe me, you are majorly in denial... regret as much as you want.... you deserve it... you are a LOSER!

If you are a real damn winner, then you could have lived in both worlds and have the best of what these 2 cities can offer..... accept it... you didn't make it. YOU ARE A LOSER! YOU DIDN'T MAKE IT AND YOU NEVER WILL WITH THAT KIND OF ATTITUDE YOU HAVE AND YOU ARE ARE ALREADY SO OLD! You are so damn insecure of yourself! If you made it, then you will be so confident of your past and present... but you never did that's why.

Sorry if I had to be very frank and honest about it but you are just so damn insecure about your past and present. You deserve to be miserable...... if you feel miserable of regretting what you did in the past, then don't make it an issue with other people..... some people are happy the way they are from the past till the present.... unfortunately, you never made it. Too bad.... tsk... tsk... tsk..... very bad.... tsk... tsk... tsk....

THE TIME WHEN you can accept yourself, what you did and feel confident of who you really are WILL NEVER HAPPEN ANYMORE. Don't pretend to be someone that you are not or someone that you wanted to be in the past and never made it...... sorry, a lot of people are called BUT only a few are chosen and we didn't see anything like you in that basket.

You deserve to be miserable and also the people you hang around with and people who "get you" you guys are ALL LOSERS.

Given a chance from the past or even in the future, you only make it once.... it's either you make it or you break it. GO TO HELL..... in any big city you go to.... and being a filipino.... we only say one thing..... "THEY COME AND THEY GO... BUT THE PILLARS OF FIRE, THEY STAY."


Your worst nightmare,

Miki